so i am guessing that everyone heard about the mess that was app for the last few hours.  we are all fine...a little shook up about the entire thing, but they have let up the lock down.  we are all trying to stay inside still and just chilling out.  app handeled it well we were on lock down minutes after the armed man was seen on the outskirts of campus.  we are all fine and it won't be something that we forget soon.  scared the crap out of me b/c i was in the area that he was last seen in minutes after it all happened.  it is fine though and life is good right now!  i wish that crazy ppl would find out that ecspecially in a post virginia tech world that you can't come near a college campus without there being serious consequences.  we are all fine for the most part and we hope that the rest of you are too!!

Tommorrow at 7:30 it will be a week since I watched my grandfather draw his last breath and slip peacefully into Heaven.  
As much as I know that he is better where he is now...he is no longer in pain...he no longer suffers.  
This week I have watched as life changes in a flash...for all of us.  
The grief is very much apparent in all of my family's lives...ecspecially my grandmother.  
My own comes at strange times when little things bring back memories.  
Like today I was walking through their house to find the recliner that he always occupied sat empty.  
Or when I play with my youngest cousin, she is two, and she looks up at me with innocent little eyes and asks, "Where is Pawpaw Gene?"  Though I must admit she has been our light in dark days...providing much needed laughter. 
I also find that there are times when I am at work and a customer buys something that my great-grandfather loved like fishing equipment...or boost drinks almost make me burst into tears.  
So this week I have had to find ways of saying goodbye, this week has felt like a lifetime...my family is exhausted, and anyone of us can burst into tears at any given moment.  
Well...as it is I am to tired to think very clearly at the moment I am going to try and sleep for awhile.

Tonight I went to our memorial service for VT.

I sat and watched 33 luminaries be lit with the VT logo on each.  My heart filled with anguish.  I sat watching the Appalachian Community ralley around each other in this time of grief for those on campus who lost friends.  I watched the faces of those around me and as the service progressed and watched tears and overwhelming saddness fill their faces.  i know mine looked the same. But I also saw the love and support that we all share because as it ended there were hugs and "I love yous" and promises to be there.  As we packed Sanford Mall we remembered all that lost their lives monday and their friends and family.   I spent time in prayer for their family and friends. 

It is times like these when I can truely say I am proud to be a Mountaineer.   Many of us did not know the 33 individuals, but we know their friends that go here.  Most of us did not loose someone monday but our friends did.  We feel their pain.  I do not know about other campuses but here there seems to be a blanket of sadness and grief.  We identify with VT being that we are in a small town and two hours away from the other.  That we are little mountain town college and if for no other reason than we are humans...and member of a university community.  This week we have asked each other the questions of what if it were us...what if it had been our campus and our dorm.  I find myself seeing people doing things differently this week.  Before we would leave our doors open while in the room but now it is rare to see doors even cracked.  People are locking their doors, even while in the room when many of us didn't even lock them while out or asleep.  We ask before opening doors that would normally be left open in the day.  We find ourselves asking if our classrooms are safe and the places we live. 

I hope that you would continue to pray for every one affected in the weeks and months and years to come. 

And as one person so simply put it, "Today we are all Hokies."

Hey guys I have something to ask of you guys.

My neighbor here at school is from Blacksburg and her boyfriend goes to VT.  Yesterday her friend was shot and is still in critical condition, she may not make it.  Also, her neighbor from home was one of the professors that was killed.  Prayer for her boyfriend too his RA was in one of the classrooms and was killed.  Also, something to thank God for, her boyfriend's friend was one of the only one's to make it out of the classroom. 

I also have another friend that her boyfriend that goes to VT please pray for them...he is in shock and everyone is really worried about him.

So please pray for Liz and Taylor and thier boyfriends while they all go through this horrible time.  Pray for the campus and community surrounding VT.  Pray for campuses all over the country.  Pray that somehow God will give us all peace during this time.  I will pray for you all...for all that have been affected through this in whatever way...through friends that have lost people and seeing their pain or losing someone yourself or even if you are simply broken for VT's loss know you are in my prayers.

Well this is the last full week of classes of my first year in college.  It is scary just how time flies by...I can't believe that it is almost over.  

I have become closer with old friends and have made some really awesome friends that i wouldn't trade for the world.  

I have lost sleep because I have procrastinated on various assignments and have to stay up until all hours of the night to finish them.

I have grown as a person...I have met different people.  I learned how to live with a perfect stranger that is a good friend now.  

I have seen it snow from October to April.  I have gone to class in -10 degree weather (and that is before the windshield factor was added.  

I have learned to be even more independent and do just about everything by myself.  

My MP3 player is my best friend in every situation possible...w/o it walking to class is kinda boring.

Never underestimate just how freakin' hard your geography class is.  

Love doesn't come any easier in college than it did when we were younger.  

There are so many chances to live the life that we have to the fullest.  There are times in life when God puts things in life that bring you to your knees and pray that everything will be ok.  This year between finding out that friends have cancer, friends are sick, that family has cancer, to holding others up when they don't think they can make it through the next day, God is there through everything.  

Then there are those times in life where every thing makes sense and life is good and God is good through it all.

There are things in life that happen that put yours in perspective.
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In my sigma alpha omega meeting, we are a christian sorority, we were talking about life and prayer requests.  

One of my sisters is married, twenty three weeks pregnant and found out today that her cervical cancer is back.  There is not much they can do at this time...so little can be done when there is a baby girl growing in her womb.  But pray for her...the sisters took it hard and i can only imagine how she and her family feels.  I could do nothing but cry everytime I looked a her pregnant belly.  Life is going to be rough the next four months...so pray please.  

And Mandi...even after surgery is not doing well...she is still sick and in incredible pain.  She told me that it was like her body was giving out on her and that it just hurt to move.  So pray for her that she will get better...that the pain will ease and that the doctors will find what is wrong.  Pray for her family and for me as her friend becase I have to be  here and not there like I want to be for her. 

It is these kinds of times in life that make you put yours in perspective you look at your problems and wonder if they are even significant to stand against others.  Life means more...days mean more...prayer means more.  It is these times and wonder why things like these happen and why there is cancer and war and disease.  It is a just hard right now....with my best friend in the entire world sick, my grandma with kiddney cancer, tia with cancer, and surgery in my family.  There are those times when I love boone and school but my heart yearns to be home with my family while it is hurting. 

So please pray.

Well my first semester is finished and over with!

It is nice to be able to sleep again, b/c of stress me and my roommate were up until ungodly hours of the morning because we couldn't sleep.  

Grades were better than I expected two A's, three B's and a C.  

It is good to be home...you never realize how much you miss home until you pull up in the driveway.

It is so freaking hot!  considering when I was taking my finals at school it was -10 degrees with the wind blowing.  

I can't believe that Christmas is only a day away.

My birthday not far after...my last year as a teenager, freaking scary.  

Most everygthing is good on my end...nothing to complain about besides I am the only person that can get posion ivy in the winter time.  yeah but i get presents tommorrow so...it makes it better. 


Happy Christmas!!! or any other holiday that you may celebrate!

Why do I care when you don't
Why cry when you'll never look hard enough to see
Why smile when you'll never ask why
Why try when my effort is lost on you
Why dream of you when you dream of someone else
Why put myself out there when you'll never take me
Why do I care so much for you?

Last semester started this week.  My classes are killer but they are classes that will stay with me for the rest of my life, except maybe Pre-Cal.

First period I have Peer Helpers, I miss everyone who was in there with me last semester.

Second Period is Anantomy, there is not much to say other than it will get to the point where it is going to be my hardest class, well depends on how Pre- Cal goes.  Atleast I have people in second that I can carry on pretty in depth meaningful conversations with. 

Third is Pre-Cal, it is ok so far.  We have a lot to get through though.  Der and Jennie are in there with me so it is fun.

Fourth is my favorite class, its US history AP with Mrs. Wallace.  God how I love that class.  It is the one thing that I can truly understand.  

God guys are still clueless.  They just don't get it do they?  Are they that blind not to see what they have in front of their faces.  That we flirt with them and give them all these hints and they still don't get it.  I am beginning to think that we need to get a marker and write "I like you" really big across our foreheads to see if they finally get it. Well I have to go and finish my homework. 

*~Love yall~*

I am really bored.  For once in about a month and a half I don't have a paper due.  It is crazy to think that the first semester of my senior year is finished.  It means that we are half way through, that makes me happy and kind of scares me.  I still have scholarships to work on, those are time consuming and make me want to scream. 

School is such a large part of my life.  I spend more time in that school building than I do any where else ever.  I like school though, if someone would pay for me to just go to school for the rest of my life I would. 

Well that is about all, I am really proud of Ashley for doing something that I don't have the guts to do. :sigh:

Well I will give some quotes

Well nothing much is happening.  School still sux.  Guys still suck.  Filling out scholarships still suck.

I am so tired of guys acting stupid here lately.  They can't see what they have right in front of them and they all cause more pain than they're worth sometimes.  They are such pains in the butt.

I have gotten most of my lit period project finished. 

Well g2g and finish homework.

:sigh:

I hate school.  I hate filling sholarship applications.  I hate liking the guy that I like.  And I hate doing research papers.  :sigh:

School sux.  I have a bad case of senioritis that will not go away. :sigh:

I hate filling out scholarship applications, they suck.  They want to know everything about you like the people that have to read the applications really care if you go to college or not.  You are just another piece of paper that they have to look over and see if you are good enough to recieve a scholarship.  :sigh:

I hate liking the guy I like.  He is so sweet.  He is funny and can make me smile and laugh.  He has the cutest smile and is so nice to other people.  I don't want to like him...but I do.  I know that it could never amount to anything so...well it sucks to like him.  :sigh:

I hate doing research papers.  I have two to do and I am not near to finishing either.  It goes back to the senioritis and hating school.  :sigh: 

Hey you guys.

Happy Turkey Day on Thursday!!!  I have to eat dinner three times, someone please help me.

I got accepted to Appalachian, now I just have to figure out how to pay for it. Congradulations to Ashely for getting into App too, and Good Luck Thursday. 

I saw Harry Potter and those guys were sssooooooo HOT!!  There were so many hormones going in that theatre I think you could have felt them rushing through the air.  I almost went fan girl for a few minutes...

Anyway it is good to have a break, I am so sick of school right now.  I will be glad for Christmas break to get here.  This year has been so hard to tolerate some people, they have just gotten under my skin to the point where I want to tell them where they can go.  I don't of course just wish I could sometimes. 

Well I will go and I will leave u with the lyrics from RENT's Seasons of love

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYBODY!!!!

There is not much to say...I have been really busy here lately.   School is kicking my butt and applications have taken up any free time.  There's really nothing left to say, I find out November 15 if I am in App or not.  HARRY POTTER COMES OUT IN 18 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE 5TH SEASON OF CSI COMES OUT NOV. 15 TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  That will be a good week. YES!!!!!!!

I have to go, English homework again!!  

                              Katie  

Well I hope that everyone has had good weeks.  Congrats to Ashley for getting Carousel(sp?) Princess.  Congrats to Katie for getting into Mercy.  Congrats to Der who talked to N out of school. Wow that was a lot of people to tell congradulations to. 

Well I have had a lot of work to do, mainly English Mrs. Giacobbe is trying to kill us I just know it.  I really can't find any critics for those poems, if any one has anything please tell me. 

I went to the football game Friday night.  Well India got Homecoming Queen, that wasn't a suprise really.  It was such a long game, I was just ready to go home.  I hope to see you all later. Love you guys, Kate

I haven't updated in so long. 

I have been really busy with school here lately.  I am so tired of school, I really need a vacation. I can't wait for a teacher's work day or something.  Its sad that the only thing that I have to look forward to is CSI on thursday nights.  All I ever do is do homework and go to school and do more homework.  I am not as bad off as some that have calculas and for that I thank guidance every day that they screwed my schedule up last year.  

Well there isn't that much more to tell about, which is sad.  So I have to go. Love Yall!!

Gil Grissom: High altitude enhances the entire sexual experience. It increases the euphoria.
Sara Sidle: Well, it's good. I don't know if it's that good... Cite your source.
Gil Grissom: Would you hand me a swab please?
Sara Sidle: You're avoiding the question. Cite your source.
Gil Grissom: A magazine.
Sara Sidle: What magazine?
Gil Grissom: "Applied psychodynamics in forensic science".
Sara Sidle: Never heard of it.
Gil Grissom: I'll get you a subscription.

Nick Stokes: Hey, Greg
Greg Sanders: [looking through the microscope] Shh! I might be looking at the mother of my children here.
Nick Stokes: Somebody's been putting in way too much overtime.
Greg Sanders: No, man, this is serious. I had a date last night and this girl has the most impossible green eyes. Just... BAM! Shoulder-length blonde hair, intelligent, and she smells so good.
Nick Stokes: Cute toes?
Greg Sanders: Oh, ideal!
Nick Stokes: Mmm.
Greg Sanders: And none are longer than the big toe.
Nick Stokes: Mmm.
Greg Sanders: Both feet. But, you know, what I need to know is what's on the inside?
Nick Stokes: Oh, what's in her heart?
Greg Sanders: No... her DNA. And let me tell you, this girl has got some fine epithelials.
Nick Stokes: [laughing] Dude, you're sick. Man, you've officially lost it!
Greg Sanders: No, no. There is this guy in Louisville. He charges 300 clams to test your spouse's underwear for foreign DNA. Now, that guy is sick. I'm just a romantic.
Nick Stokes: But whatever happened to getting to know someone over coffee, letting the relationship evolve? Romantic is sending flowers, not bogarting her skin cells.
Greg Sanders: Ahh, that's boring.